16 9 / 2014
do you ever have those times at 4am where you get so motivated and decide to get all your shit together and then plan out your entire life and future and then the next morning you’re just like lol
16 9 / 2014
Anonymous said: Do you prefer big girls or small girls?
What I prefer is irrelevant to what people should be. I like people for how I feel around them, and most likely if I find someone to be beautiful it has little or nothing to do with their body. I find that words are the most attractive features a person can offer, and only words seem to entice me. If a person’s words represent their soul, and they invite me to be intimate with them in a sexual manner, then I will become intrigued by their body regardless of size. It’s easy to not objectify strangers bodies if only one were to grasp on to a single shred of respect for individual possession of self.
14 9 / 2014
"Can I call you? I miss the sound of your voice."
11 9 / 2014
don’t send me snapchats from something i wasn’t invited to you rude ass bitch
11 9 / 2014
people say ‘I love you’ in a lot of different ways
'get some sleep'
'i want to give you multiple consecutive orgasms'
06 9 / 2014
My father asked me this question about five minutes ago. I stared at him for a moment, then put my face in my hands and convinced myself to keep my mouth shut. The things I could have said.
As i sit here in bed, thinking about that question, I realize that my father and I have different definitions of the word family. To him, family is a blood connection that ties people together. It is the result of marriage and reproduction. To me, however, family is not about blood. Family means nobody gets left behind. Family means we all have each other’s best interests in mind. Family means happiness, security, support; family is a safe haven.
Though my “blood family” is extremely important to me, I also have RUPA, DPA, SAPA, specific cousins, and Karthik. These people (and groups of people) are my safe havens. When I’m with them, there’s no place I’d rather be (yes, that song reference was intentional). They challenge me, support me, and most of all, they understand me. They know that when I’m quiet, I have been crying. They know that when I get irritated easily, I’m stressed out about school or work. They know I like to get credit where it’s deserved and that I think constructive criticism is a necessary part of growth. They know that I value autonomy and authenticity, but that I just need a friend when I’m going through a rough time. Likewise, I know that when Sarah (from RUPA) does her little awkward smile, she’s about to cry. I know that Ryan (also from RUPA) can’t think clearly until he’s gone on his morning jog. I know that Mona (from DPA) constantly struggles with being the daughter that her mother wants her to be. I know that Ankur (from SAPA) wants to get involved in college because this is his chance to start over. I know that Karthik, despite his humor and big smile, has insecurities that he’s tirelessly working on.
The point is, a group of people can only be considered family if they understand each other, if they take a moment to step back every once in a while and think, “What makes this person tick? What lies beneath the surface of this person?”
There’s your answer, Dad. What you call family is just a group of people (who happen to be related by blood) trying to get along. In order to make this group of people a family, we all need to recognize that we’re different. We need to be okay with me not being the ideal daughter, with you not being the ideal father. That’s OKAY! We have to accept that. We have to accept that it’s impossible to force someone to become a totally different person. We have to allow for individualism, personal growth, and autonomy. And we have to stop being so scared. Stop fearing that I’ll ruin my career, that I’ll make the wrong friends, that I’ll date the wrong person. Start trusting that you’ve raised me well enough to make my own decisions. After all, why do parents work so hard to raise their kids well? So that one day, when the time comes, they can make their own effective life decisions. I’m not ready to make all of my life decisions, but I am ready for some. You need to trust that you’ve done a great job—that I will be the successful and hard working woman you raised me to be. But I can’t be that woman if you still see me as a girl.
30 8 / 2014
"Don’t kiss me if you’re afraid of thunder. My life is a storm."